Monday, August 4, 2008
Not Skittles and Rainbows
My friend, Ginnie, recently posted a comment on here stating that it's ok to share when everything isn't "skittles and rainbows". First, I have to say, Ginnie, that I love that phrase and have adopted it. Hope you don't mind. Secondly, it's not skittles and rainbows right now. This treatment (#4) has really hit me. The doc said the most common side effect of treatment to build a cumulative effect is the fatigue and this one got me. Usually on treatment day, I sleep for about 20 minutes during treatment, then just go to bed early that night. Otherwise, I'm pretty good. This time, I slept through half my treatment, including falling asleep while our friend Melissa was visiting us and dropping off dinner at treatment! (Sorry, Melissa!) I slept the whole ride home, and then about 3 hours in the afternoon. For a few days I have to take my anti-nausea meds, which have a nice little stimulant in them, so I usually feel decent through the weekend. This weekend, I was just a bit more tired than usual. But today, I'm a bit of a mess. Very tired, emotionally off track. Not sure I've mentioned the effects of all this on my hormones before, but basically chemo sends you into menopause, so I'm sure I'm tough to be around. I feel like I went through an accelerated menopause PLUS I'm tired. My head is a little fuzzy, like I'm just moving slowly. It's kind of like the hormonal roller coaster of being pregnant, but without the happy little glow. Rory decided this weekend to be a true two-year-old and wore us all out a bit, too. As always, family and friends are helping out, for which I am grateful. So, keep your fingers crossed for me and send any extra energy and focus you might have my way, as I can use it. Love you all!